Posted by Moonpie50 on Wednesday, August 10, 2011
It's been awhile since I have been on the hangout. I have been so busy with "life"....My mom passed away the 11th day of July and my heart has been broken ever since, and I have truly cried every day since the day mom died. It's really a strange feeling because I honestly felt something inside of me go empty and it is something that is hard to describe. Maybe it is kinda how Dorothy felt when she couldn't find Kansas anymore. I don't know? I feel kinda lost at times....
I just started back playing music again because my total focus has been about "Mom". I went to a jam today and really had a good time with some "new found friends". Lots of good pickers with big hearts!!! and it sure was good for the soul. Isn't it funny how music can be so healing at times? I can see now where it can be your best friend when you are down.
I have been playing bass at these jams over the past couple of months and have really came along way, and I have been able to sing as well which has been a lot of fun. My fiddling has made some improvements too. There has been a couple of really good fiddlers at the jams that I have learned a lot from, and it has been pretty exciting. No one there has any big agenda other than having a good time and good fellowship. No put downs, or attitudes just lots of fun and a great learning experience. I am looking forward to the bluegrass classes that will be starting up in the fall at the local community college and plan on jumping into that soon too.
It sure is good to be back.....
Wednesday, August 10, 2011 @8:41:25 PM
I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. It sounds like your mom was a big part of your life. I'm sure you have many wonderful memories. Music and friends certainly have great healing properties. Glad to see you back here and still fiddlin'.
Thursday, August 11, 2011 @12:43:28 PM
I'm so sorry for your loss and I know what you feel. I lost my mother this past January...and feel lost like you. Grief is so strange...it does odd things to your outlook as well as your mind. I had a hard time remembering anything this past winter. She was my best friend and I feel the void every single day. I was lucky this winter, about 6 weeks after she passed, to find a fiddle teacher where I live, so it was such a help to get back into the music...as I too didn't touch any music...for 6 weeks! Hang in there and know that your Mom would want you to enjoy yourself and be happy. She would not want you to be sad for the rest of your life.
Tuesday, August 23, 2011 @7:28:11 PM
I've been out of touch from the hangout for a few weeks now for a variety of reasons. My latest excuse is that my wife and I were visiting my parents in western Minnesota for a few days. They're in their early 80's. I don't like to think about that, but I can't help it. I played a little fiddle for them, and have played mandolin for them in the past. Music only a mother could love, eh?
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